The last months ,year  have been the busiest times in so many ways 
I think last year I spoke at 80 events and this year  will reach over 100 ,in fact I have been a guest speaker at 30 events - talks so far this year 
This is one side of the project the other is meetings and working with the team on ideas and reports  
It has been a hectic time and I am grateful for the opportunities to raise awareness as this in my passion and to be honest I have not had much time to think between talks and travelling 
I returned home late night from Middlesbrough  and as I walked down the street once again  looking at the house in darkness ,emotions as they do sometimes  hit quite hard 
I sat in the  darkened sitting room  and it all got a bit much almost not wanting to walk up the stairs to pass the empty room that mum was confined to over the last months .And I just miss her
My wee ,mum in amongst our struggles and over the last 5 years was also (with dad ) my best  pal I have spent the last weeks months years  in crowded rooms speaking at events in many ways papering over the cracks of a broken heart  and my heart IS broken 
We struggled and suffered great great loneliness over the last 5 years but I was never truly lonely not with my wee mum by  my side 
Today  I feel lonely and so sad inside for a mum who deserved much better thank she got and  to often I was able to give
I struggle sometimes coming home from crowded rooms to this empty house ,this empty heart  and I miss my wee mum who no matter what she faced made sure her big boy was ok
Tommy
For mum 
#Mothersday

 
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